Spread it like butter

I meant to say a little something on here at the beginning of the year.. I haven't really kept up with this blog, but I plan on changing that in 2013. I'm not exactly sure for what reason? I do like to keep a journal, so it really isn't necessary for me to share my life online. I do, however, feel some big changes and cool things coming this year so I want to get a headstart documenting it all. I want to become less active on facebook and more active on here and twitter.
On the first day of the year, I shared something with my facebook "friends" and on twitter. It really depicts everything from 2012 that I loved and learned from so much --

Beyond lucky to have rung in the new year with the best lil sis ever + la familia! The year of the dragon was everything i wished for and más! Spent so much time with the realest of friends, jet set and roadtripped around America more than I expected! Witnessed Mexico beat Brazil from the best seats ever! made new friends! Learned things and faced some new challenges. Went to SXSW! Went to ACL! Wa...s in a music video! Danced! Got an iPhone! I facebooked! I tweeted! I blogged! I tumblred! I instagrammed! I pinned! I repinned! Got real! Got creative! Got a vision(s) ! Got a job! Got to spend the best Texas summer ever with the three coolest Brits of all! Shared my house, my room, my family, my friends, my car and memories for a month..and still wasn't enough time with y'all! We will forever owe Aurillac for bringing us together! So excited for our REUNION 2013 ! Hope everyone's year is full of light and positivity! Eat your grapes and black-eyed peas and may all our wishes come true! ✌

 

I'm really excited for everything I'm going to do this year and for the memories I will make. It's hard to remember that everything in this world is temporary. Things come and go and we need to be grateful for what experiences we have had and shared. I had a really special conversation with my friend Ben Ross this morning

 

Ben: there are so many diff ppl in the world and so many subcultures and so many f*d up ppl like i feel like it's all just so crazy there are like 5000 genres of life you know just in my city and then when you think about the world and different laws and religions
it's like there is no way of knowing anything or there ever being a right or wrong way you know. and i keep coming to the conclusion that nothing actually matters really you know
so it's like all that matters is now and lovee so i how can i spread that better?

 

me: spread it like butter tho

 

Ben: and then it's like ok all that matters is love and laughing and then it's like what about the things that come from despair and upset it's all valid

 

me: but the its selfish to walk away from my family / "home" even tho its not necessarily home but u know

Ben: yeah but what's wrong with curiosity or walking away from it

i guess it's our generations search for the global culture that hasn't been fully realized yet but we all feel it

 

me: that's the thing, is there's nothing wrong with it. but we all so long to be loved  / accepted that we will give up on dreams and everything we feel like doing for fear of disappointing others or not being accepted. we def all feel it but are too much of p***** to get up and do it. and when u finally do, everyone just thinks you're a bum that has no ambition. and it's hard to live with that, at least for me

 

This article from Thought Catalog really helped get some things into perspective.